[Ibogaine] succesful ubdate.

Randy Faulconer bicuitboy714 at gmail.com
Wed Nov 25 15:48:01 EST 2009


                  Get down bro, I hope for all that you want in life my
brother, will come to pass.

                                    Peace Love and Serenity
                                                     Randy
                                                          BiscuitBoy Blues

On Wed, Nov 25, 2009 at 9:22 AM, Jeremy Spence <jlspence12 at gmail.com> wrote:

>  Good job!!
>
>
> Now, try to "stay heathy"
> if you can...
>
> I'm in the process of refining my deit.
>
> It's very hard.
> I never knew a thing about health.
> And I thought I was a bodybuilder...........
>
> But you know,
> I never knew what health even was???
>
> I'm not against drugs, I'm really not..
>
> I'd be in a worse hell without them..
>
> But sooner or later.
> I'm going to have to get better or die trying...
>
>
> I'm not trying to hear bing a "man"
> On SSI for the rest of my days.....
>
>
> I'm just not trying to hear that.
> I "forcing fruits and veggys "down the hatch"
>
> I thoght it about it today. and I thought "nothing"
> of downing Xanax "bars"
> And 16 dilaudid 8s while watching the
> blow movie!!
> stamping on "not in reality" coca
> Leafs....
>
>
> I just didn't know what health even was..
> And I'm sorry poeple,
> it doesn't come from a chem. Comp,
> Or a behind counter pharamcy.....
>
> But let me set the record straight!!
>
>
> I'm not against phara drugs for pain and
> disease.
> I'm not for extremes..
>
> Even though I wil admit,
> I'm a "highly extreme"
> person..
>
> But I'm not as bad as poeple tend to think.....
> like with sex.
> I have "no desire" to take that to
> a extreme!!!!!!
> I just don't!!!!
>
> It be nice to find " true love"
> but I don't even believe in that after
> that IC BS thing, not after 13 years
> I don't.
> Coming back and forth!!
> it's a crazy cond.
>
> I realky is.
> and I'm not saying that just because I saying
> it to say it.
> It true is one he'll of a strange and
> CRAZY disease!!
> Then you add "me" to the =and you get=
> "CAR BOMB!!!!"
>
> It's better then it was.
> But it goes back and forth a lot.
>
> But I have to tell docs. I'm grateful to
> have the drugs I have in my med kit
> to combat the pain with it.
>
> I truly never ask for this disease..
>
> What guy wants his sex and dating life
> "ruined"
> Pretty close!!!! Maybe not for "life"
> but damm "close!!!!"
>
> It's not as bad as it use to be.
> And yes "I can" think you...
>
> But it's the label you get that about
> kills you With this.
>
> But fuck it, I'm over it.
>
> I just like to get rid of the pain meds.
> but I'm not rushing it.
> I've tried to rush it before. And it just doesn't
> work.
>
>
> If I had this thing over again.
> I would have followed the deit better.
> and researched supplements.
>
> I waited, until I was fucked on my death
> bed, before I start thinking to my
> self, "you know??"
> This is not working....
>
> I'm "NOT" against drugs!!
> Pharm or other wise.
> But man, you kind of need to not "plan"
> On living on them "forever"
> But again, it should be the person
> choice about that..
> The Nazi, policing style BS..
> I just don't like it....
> I just don't care for it, and i find I
> quite counter producive really...
> It's rarely saved me from shit!!
>
> The older I get, the more I'm against the idiotness!! "policing"
> Of poeple, I use to not really know what to believe
> on that...... A little Coaching never kill nobody though..
>
> I like my black doc style, he my
> "coach" With the meds..
>
> Not a "Nazi"
>
> I'm so sick of the idiotic Nazi ass BS.
> I mean, ok there a time and place
> for that..
>
> Ok, maybe in time of war??
> I don't know?? Just for a "staying alive"
> stand point. plus not being out of it, and letting
> your Conrads get shot the fuck up because
> U were out of it.... And they all
> got shot up because of "you"
> Not doing your job.
>
> So I get it some.
>
> But, It goes to far.
>
> Again, the older I get the less I'm for extremes.
> Either way....
> L or R.
> But if I had to chose it be Slightly to the L.
>
>
> I just can't take the "judgemenal idiot R"
> I just "can't!!!!"
>
> I'm not say it's "all bad"
> but it tends to get extreme on the let's
> fucking judge everybody BS.
>
> I just can't take that shit!!
>
>
> Jame!!
> Man, if I ever get my paramedic Lic.
>
> Man, I might really think about trying
> my luck out west..
>
> I hate the town.
> I hate it.
>
> I see why poeple "MOVE!!!!!"
>
> I might never move.
> But man,
> I might hit you up get to get "started"
> out there man.
>
> I'm not taking free loading man.
> If It came to that, I'd find a way back home.
> or figure something out.
>
> I've never been the type to being my
> shit on another person who got there hands
> full also, like I don't know you don't..
>
>
> I'm talking I've I can "stay"
> well, and get working "here 1st"
> "and stay well"
> for a few years... A while really.
>
> But man, I hate this town!!
>
> I fucking hate it!!!
> I just fucking "hate" it here at times!!
>
> It's too "small minded for me"
>
> I never wanted to stay here man!!
> I always wanted to move out west!!
>
> "always"
> But I don't know anybody.
> And it's hard to pack up and leave.
>
> I just might need to help gets set up down there
> that all I'm talking about.
>
> Hey, I'm not like it.
> and move back.
>
> But I like to at least see what it's like over
> in Cali.
>
> But, man, I'm talking down the road
> when I'm better man.
> and off some of this bull,
> and "working man"
>
> I want to atleast have my paramedic Lic
> If I move down there.
>
> I know you need to get your hustel on
> if you want to live in Cali.
>
> I wouldn't mind trying my hand at acting
> also.
> hey, fuck it.,
> Go out "with a bang!!!"
>
>
> Why not??
> I never was a fake person.
> Ever.
> But I'm a farly ok looking dude.
> Got some abs.
>
> Been told by some poeple here I trust I
> should try my hand at it.
>
> I'm not "full of my self"
> Believe, I'm not..
>
> But I think I could being something no
> other actor could draw from.
> "realness"
>
> But, you never know.
> I wouldn't go out there "banking on it though"
> Ya know..
>
> I just be fun to try.
> I never wanted to be in middle school dama
> because of my ADD.
> I had a women teacher, "begging me to be on
> the dama team in middle school.....
>
> I just never saw what she saw in me..
>
> I just never believed I could do it.
>
> She "begged me"
> I told her I just can't do it.
> I Just can't.
>
> I remember how much she bag me now that
> I think about it..
> I just didn't see what she saw in me.
>
> I just couldn't see my own self..
> I just could see what she saw.
>
> I thought she was crazy.
>
> But now I think back.
> she really much have saw something I just
> couldn't see.
>
> I don't know??
> It kind of freaked me out??
>
> I never saw my self "with the "in crowd"
> I just didnt..
>
> I had low eestem, it was everything
> from my fuck home life, running away at
> 13 year of age, "middle" school.
>
> I all just killed me, then just when I was
> starting to over come my fear of
> dating and was in love,
> ready to get married, fucken "BAM!!!!"
>
> IC at 21 mother fucker!!
> From 200 pounds to a 100!!!!!
>
>
> Fucked the hell up!!!!!
>
> I have fought "damm" hard!!
> To get my body the way it is!!
>
> And this time, I'm taking it "all the mother
> fucking way dammit!!!"
> If I can.
>
>
> This time round, "thinking about health"
> and going through the "produce line"
>
> Some I "forgot about"
> During "dark beer slaming bodybuilding"
>
> J
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> On Nov 25, 2009, at 4:11 AM, Matthew Zielinski <
> masterhermesbathory at gmail.com> wrote:
>
>   Amazing!!!  Good job brother!!
>
> Matt
>
> On Wed, Nov 25, 2009 at 12:06 AM, Matt S < <ibogamail at gmail.com>
> ibogamail at gmail.com> wrote:
>
>> Right on Michael.  Congratulations.  Keep on keepin' on.
>>
>> Matt
>>
>> michael langshaw wrote:
>>
>>     Hello All!
>>
>>      Well, its been almost 9 months to the day since I did my Ibo
>> treatment and I have not yet gone back on heroin or any opiate for that
>> matter. For those of you who know me know that I was battling with booze
>> after my treatment. Though I started drinking just to combat the depression
>> and anxiety of coming off the suboxone , being an alcoholic this did not
>> work well. I ended up a full blown drunk. I'm happy to say that I am off the
>> booze for 3 months now and 9 months clean off all drugs. Id say that my
>> treatment was a success!!! I will be forever grateful to those who helped me
>> find an underground provider. Life is good again. I am once again employable
>> and employed. I have a relationship with my family again. I feel great
>> and most of all I have my sanity back and have absolutely no desire to
>> return to that hellish place of addiction that we're all too familiar with.
>> Much love to all!!
>>
>> Mike
>>
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