[Ibogaine] OT skydiving

Matt Shriver ibogamail at gmail.com
Sun Jul 20 00:18:36 EDT 2008

I jumped out of an airplane today.  It was something I had always told 
myself I wanted to do but just one more of those things that was out of 
reach of my junkie lifestyle.  I mentioned a few years ago to my then 
girlfriend, now wife, that I had always wanted to do that and last year 
for my birthday she gave me a gift certificate for a jump.  When my 
birthday was coming around again this year I finally decided to schedule 
it and today I finally did it.  Very surreal experience.  Right up there 
with the most powerful experiences I have ever had.  I had quite a bit 
of trepidation going into it but now that I am on the other side of it I 
could totally do it again.  I noticed something interesting.  I first 
noticed it on the faces of the other skydivers, first in the videos I 
watched before hand, and then on the actual jump.  I did a tandem jump 
which means I was strapped onto the chest of an experienced sky diver, 
but two other guys jumped with us, they were both practicing to video 
tape other sky divers so they were both very close to us in free fall.  
And I noticed a strange look to their faces and I realized later that it 
was the look that goes along with the state of mind I experienced which 
was a remarkable clarity of thought.  My mind was not blank when I was 
falling but it was not distracted by anything.  There was no trace of a 
shadow of an extraneous thought anywhere.  Only the moment.  Only what 
was happening right then.  I see why it can be addictive.  One of these 
guys who was practicing to do the video taping said he jumped 18 times 
just last weekend.  I think I may try to cultivate "free fall mind" in 
my everyday life.  I have quite an interesting life shaping up around me 
since I got clean.  Sometimes I can't believe it's really my life.


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