[Ibogaine] The War on Consciousness , Marc Emery

simon loxton simonloxton at yahoo.co.uk
Sun Sep 30 18:18:17 EDT 2007

Hi Luke,
It is a complex issue, as we all experience pain on some level during life which is why Buddha said get used to it. We cant change the past but we can change how the past effects our future. Its also up to us how much of the past we are going to drag around with us and whether it is going to have a positive or negative influence on our future.
I could see my years of addiction as wasted opportunity and look at the pain I caused others and my mistakes and live a life of regret and live in the past all the time. Or I can see the past experiences as a gift which brought me to the place I am today, where I have gained insights into my self and how I make decisions that effect my future. Its my choice.

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From: Luke Christoffersen <luke.christoffersen at gmail.com>
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Sent: Sunday, 30 September, 2007 10:48:04 PM
Subject: Re: [Ibogaine] The War on Consciousness , Marc Emery

Hi Simon,
             I don't know if there are many unconditionally loving families about. Maybe I'm being cynical, I've just seen and heard so much of the way people can be ignorant towards children without being aware of the damage they can do. I hope there are, I guess there must be. I still think that there's mostly likely some painful trauma in the addicts background. Maybe if the parents are loving someone might be abused by an outsider, babysitter, relation, priest, teacher.  I remember reading about a local man who killed himself because he was abused by a local man, his other brother was picketing the abusers place as he was abused too.  Never heard what became of him. 

           There are probably other things that happen in circumstances that aren't the parents fault but will still cause a child damage. It's hard to know what could happen to cause problems.

 I recall reading that Arthur Janov said that people having traumatic births has being more susceptible to addictions later because they have heavy pain imprint at such a crucial stage it makes other pains seem more extreem. I had traumatic birth but I know my mother did too but she wasn't ever addicted to anything. I could see where it caused a lot of problems though. 


On 9/27/07, simon loxton <simonloxton at yahoo.co.uk> wrote: 
HI Luke,
So what you are saying is that some families only look like good families only from an outsiders point of view and I agree with this. But you can have addicts coming from good families in the true sense (although I am sure you would have to define what is meant by good) 
So lets just say for argument both parents are present and the child grows up realising that they are loved by both parents unconditionally and both parents love each other. 
All that needs to happen is for some one from that family to go through certain experiences to create or bring out an addictive type behaviour. To give an example they took twins and separated them for the day. One started the day listening to upbeat music the other sentimental. Then they each watched a separate movie. The one was a sad and sentimental and the other a comedy. They then sent them shopping to see how they would behave and the differences were obvious. The one who received the upbeat music and saw a comedy enjoyed her self and bought some thing she normally would not so she became a bit more inspired and adventurous. The other bought nothing. To me it  just shows how you can take any person and expose them to a set of experiences and these experiences can have an affect on that persons life. So you can have a person from a loving home who has a bad day or even not, but for some reason the addictive personality starts and has nothing to do
 with where you are from or what your background is. The only thing I can say in defence of the loving family situation that they may have possibly spent time educating the child on how to avoid developing destructive behaviour patterns. 

----- Original Message ----
From: Luke Christoffersen < luke.christoffersen at gmail.com>
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Sent: Wednesday, 26 September, 2007 9:13:13 PM 
Subject: Re: [Ibogaine] The War on Consciousness , Marc Emery

Hi Simon,
             There's one thing I've noticed about the strangeness of addicts or other messed up people coming from so called 'good homes'.  People/Parents often don't behave the same way when other people are around than they do when children are at home when there's no one to see what the dynamic is really like.  I've seen it in my own life and in things I've heard from others.  What my look like a happy home from the outside could be miserable and lonely for the child.  Then when people grow up they can't remember it, don't know there was anything wrong. Most people bury the memories 
            Often I think the idea of a traumatic childhood is thought of as someone who was sexually abused or other of the extreme ends of this area but years of little things like being criticized or not being allowed to express oneself build up to cause terrible lifelong damage.  I think there's many things that take place in 'good' homes that destroy the child from being the person he or she needs to be allowed to be. I didn't come from a broken home or poor home or anything like that, there was a lot of enjoyment in my childhood too, but I still grew to be miserable and twisted and suffering with self hatred because of negativity during my early life but once I'd grown up I had long forgotten and and no idea understanding of what was wrong inside me even though the hurt was still inside me. Drink and drugs allowe d me to free myself for a time. 


On 9/23/07, simon loxton <simonloxton at yahoo.co.uk > wrote: 
This maybe true, but being an addict or ex addict I have had plenty of friends who came from very good homes. Then there are the addicts that are very motivated and good in business you just don't hear about the last two because they manage to keep things covered up quite well and have the finances to keep them out of trouble and out of the public eye. As an example, the guy who I developed a habit with was a Dutch school teacher, he still had a good relationship with his family and had a "normal" life other than the fact that he was addicted to heroin. 

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