[Ibogaine] implications for the long-lasting actions of the anti-addictio...

slowone at hush.ai slowone at hush.ai
Sun Oct 15 14:49:31 EDT 2006


Hang in there, Randy. I hope your Mom is ok.

On Sun, 15 Oct 2006 06:30:27 -0700 BiscuitBoy714 at aol.com wrote:
>Well Preston I think you know I agree with you. This morning I 
>wish I had  
>some methadone. I don't want to be addicted but I sure wish I 
>could get that  
>feeling of all is well I got from my 'done. My Mom got rushed to 
>the hospital  
>last night. It looks like it's her pancreas. They're doing tests 
>right now and 
>I  guess we'll hear something in a little while but I'm scared. My 

>mind is 
>going  1000 miles an hour. I didn't get to see her before she 
>left, I got up at 
>6:30  like always and she was gone with Boyd to the hospital in 
>Hudson so I'm 
>freaking  out pretty much. I don't know if I'll ever be able to 
>deal with life  
>without thinking of, much less not doing drugs to deal with bad 
>feelings. I 
>just  realized I had a big shooting dope dream last night too. It 
>just now hit 
>me.  Needles with broken points that I sharpened, using other 
>peoples fits 
>without  being able to clean them out good, all kinds of scary 
>shit. Heroin, 
>oxy's and at  one point there was a big jar full of hydrocodone 
>that I just put 
>water in and  used a great big needle to pull it up with. This is 
>freaking me 
>out. Why did I  dream this? I didn't know my Mom was sick then. 
>God give me 
>strength. I'm  so worried about my Mom I'm shaking.         Randy



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