luke.christoffersen at gmail.com
Sun Oct 15 10:34:21 EDT 2006
Perhaps you failed to get out naturaly by your own at birth.
Could you have been a forceps delivery? I was and it seems to be
linked in to me being paralized and not so outgoing as I should be.
I have often thought that there's no point to a career, it's all
hopeless. I just give up trying because I already feel so deep down
> I disappeared into books from age 5 through early adulthood. In my
> late teens, I had a sense that it was finally time to connect with
> people, to show myself and make my way in the world. I soon found
> that whenever I was doing something well, particularly in public, I
> froze. Whenever I felt something strong in myself, fear would
> immediately eat it away. If I felt desire, I'd shut down. I
> couldn't decide what to do with my life - I hadn't asked to be
> born, so why should I choose a career? It was as if a firm decision
> to live eluded me.
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