Leah - a better introduction
bassants at xtra.co.nz
Sun Jun 18 04:07:31 EDT 2006
Hi to everyone, a quick intro because I'm about to post my ibo experience.
It was three weeks ago today that I was iboed at Kapt Kirk's in Dunedin.
Since then, I've come to my sisters in Wellington, so I'm using her
computer, which shows as "Michelle"
Hey, firefly girl! You inspired me with your writing. It's amazing what
comes 'out-of-Dunedin' Stay on track, it's do-able,,,,,,,,,
It's 3 weeks since I was 'iboed' & it's like my eyes have finally stopped
pointing in different directions.
I was living in Auckland NZ, hooked up with Steve, very hooked up, so it's
still incredulous to me that we both took (what seems now) such a blind
leap of faith.
Meeting Steve, I'll never forget it, 1st at the car window (approval I
guess) then stepping into his home, was like heading straight into an opium
den in Shanghai China.
I was in heaven!
For the next 2 years I visited daily & it suited me fine. He made great
dope, we became friends, got on famously & still do.
I have a history of relationships with addicted men. Severe opiate
My sister theorised it as: since our father was a chronic, face down,
pass-out alcoholic, I, therefore, chose addicted men, to repeat the
familiar, knowing that oblivion is a sure thing. Hmmmmmm..
My relationship with Steve was pure drugs, yet surprisingly to spite how
utterly utterly entrenched he was, he kept saying he wanted out. This was
so hard to believe, I was having trouble functioning with or without gear,
I had huge doubts. . . . . .
It was Steve's mum who found the ibo web site, so we began to read up.
Steve e-mailed Eric Taub.I couldn't believe it when he replied saying,
"yeah, it's doo-able"
Eric then said he won't be coming to NZ, but Jasen from Australia will
come over, as the provider.
I didn't have a lot of faith in any of this, I kept telling Steve that Jasen
was probably smacked out in the Cross somewhere, (sorry Jasen, I was so
wrong). I also read 'Jasen's story" & thought kerrrrissst, wot A
TRIP!!!!......This from someone who NEVER liked tripping, way too scared I'd
be landed with snakes coming at me.....
Anyway, the plan kept unfolding.pack-up our lives in Auckland.
Book flights to south island, including Jasen's flight over. Order & pay
for the ibo. Worry about customs seizing it.!!!! Thanks to Jill & Ash for
doing the leg work here.
Steve, THANKYOU, getting enough gear for BOTH of us to survive on. It was
not an easy time considering our combined habits, $$$$problems, health
concerns, well, you know how insanely narrow & fucked it gets. . .
He left 1st, I flew to Dunedin a week later. I'd sent 1 email to Jasen, he
wanted confirmation I had an aftercare plan, I still hadn't spoken to
I got in to Dunedin at 9.30am, arrived at kirks soon after. She met me
outside, thankchrist!!! She's one of us.
So here I am, had my last shot the night before, I'd made up a jug of
poppy juice for that morning-however-it's the afternoon now ...& Jasen has
arrived at Kirsty's. Gorgiss Jasen, so alive looking, fresh from
SUCCESSFULLY treating Steve. I'm feeling overwhelmed, I wanted to cry, but
didn't. It was so hard to take in.freedom????
By 12pm Sunday I was in bed, ready.,,now or never.
Jasen was a constant calming influence. We gave thanks, I took the ibo.
He explained to spite dark influences that may appear it is impossible for
me to be harmed, he gave me a mantra, I'm pure white spirit (something like
I heard the ringing in my ears, soon after I began to see images forming,
coming towards me.My journey seemed to form three stages. The first was
like astral travel, I was flying, over cities, sometimes recognizing them,
faster & faster over buildings, then towards huge waterfalls, down into huge
sewer systems where animals were morphing into serpents, sounds crazy, but
there was no fear attached to any of this. It played out like a movie, &
was in darkness.
In the next stage, I watched as the earth came into being, I was shown
mankind in the evolution stages, then fast forward through the centuries.
In contrast to the rest of my journey, this was all in bright white light.
The Biwiti tribe showed up periodically, they were a peaceful presence shown
in the distance, bathed in orange light.
After the evolution stage, the remainder was spent up in the great chasm
of universe, Lord, what an eye opener! Mankind teetering on madness!!,
visiting the spirit world. It was amazing, I can remember heaps, think
about it now, WOW!
I believe I am changed forever.
I am forever grateful to everyone who has helped this happen. Kirsty's
home environment was perfect, just like her. Jasen-- weren't you on
methadone 20years? You were fantastic, a man like I've never known. The
providers are crucial. After the 12 or so hour trip, the body is purging,
throwing off the old, I felt open, so open, both Kirk & Jasen had been thru
this, they knew instinctively how to be. Human beings, being gentle, loving,
caring, TO ME ! These people WERE addicts.
Ibo shook me to the very core. I love what I've been thru. My body is
waking up & yeah, I feel so new, not lobotomized at all, changed tho. The
journey is mind, body & soul & seems so complete. For anyone considering
this path to freedom. . ...a way thru the agony of hanging -Id like to
say-WHAT STOPS YOU ?
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