[Ibogaine] a newbie speaks

captkirk captkirk at clear.net.nz
Wed Jun 14 21:50:16 EDT 2006


Hey Tanz great to see you on the list!!
Welcome chris.,,,, yay lots of Southern Hemisphereans
appearing on here, good to see!!
Koiky xxxx
----- Original Message Follows -----
> Hello group,
> I would like to introduce myself, my name is Christian,
> from QLD Australia and I have been on Methadone for about
> 8yrs now and finally feel that I have dealt with the
> majority of the issues that got me onto it in the first
> place so I have been looking into ways to deal with the
> psychological addiction/issues over the last few years
> using various methods, psychedelics among them (Mushrooms,
> LSD, DMT, Salvia).
> 
> This has led me down the very long path of Ethnobotany
> (which was always an interest) and finally to
> T.Iboga/Ibogaine and then to this group.
> 
> I have luckily had the chance to grow some fresh T.Iboga
> seeds but unfortunately they didn't germinate however I
> should FINALLY be getting a live plant in the coming
> months (YEAHY!) (unfortunately it will be many years
> before there is a usable amount of root bark)
> 
> I look forward to sharing more about myself with you all
> in the coming future and looking forward to joining a
> group of like minded people all search for the same light.
> 
> Best wishes,
> Chris.
> 
> 
> 
> On 6/14/06, firefly <lik4luk at yahoo.com.au> wrote:
> >
> > Hey allyou fellas-the opiate free(nice job) and like me
> > the planing to be opiate free real soon!
> > Well I'm 30(just)-I am a single mum of two boys,salem is
> > 2.5yrs and josef is almost 7.I started using after
> > anasty car crash that rooted my shoulda(ooo that pain)
> > and had to sell my busy salon(not for a profit as it was
> only 2yrs old).so with that devastation and pain came my
> > "saviour"- morphine.loved it loved it began to hate it
> > ,blew all my veins used to spend ages with my hand in
> > the sink of hot water waiting for my terrified wee veins
> > to come hither-quite often ending up with as many holes
> as spongebob-bumjob!was using when I became preggy and got
> > offered done"no way"said I and sumhow weaned myself
> > off-all good,healthy baby boy!driving along da road one
> > day toot toot wave etc.yupone of my old using buds.so it
> goes-"hey I'm just workin dwn the road from your house u
> > keen for a taste?' and we all know that snowball effect
> > of just one taste.Iwas hitting up 'done one day(yeah eh
> > dum as-"u'l loose that half life-wot a waste"blah
> blah)stuck the fit into the bottle,yup safety first for me
> > back then!,started to plunge it into my arm felt funny
> > airbubbles runnin up my arm looked down!aargh a fukin
> > fitfull of air!!!I looked up at the veiw for wot I
> thought was the last time wot a disgusting feeling.Didnt
> > put me off I just took more time to check wot I was doin
> > in my rattling state. Anyway once my Boy was able to
> > crawlinto the kitchen or whereeva I was cookin/hittin up
> > I couldnt do it any more.memba seeing a kid with his
> mums used fit stirring it round in her dregs-he was only
> > 3.I was brought up with morals and they came back.So I
> > have depression sumtimes real bad,didnt want to be
> > treated as a junkie so took myself to the psych ward to
> do a detox(without their knowledge)I just knew if they
> > were onto my using all the psych help would go out the
> > window!all was ok,even tho I was sharing a room with a
> lady getting injected with opiates for neck pain!so one
> > day i felt bad sore tum and nausea they gave me sum
> > drugs and WOE I had a psych reaction and fuk was I
> > tripping!!!so  my mate told the Dr's about my using in
> case that had a bearing-esp. coz I found my mates visitor
> > was on the done and was buying that in the ward!SOOO I
> > was rite all the Post traumatic stress or post baby
> > depression or woteva just was forgotten.The worst thing
> I remember was the Chief Psych Dr for ALL the ward asked
> > me if I ever had a spontaneous orgasm from withdrawing
> > off opiates.I was so sick and vulnerable tired and
> > deperessed and all he was into was me
> orgasming-asswipe!So my options were wait 10months to go
> > on methadone through the pain clinic or 5months for the
> > programme through CADDS(community alc and drugs
> > services). So of course 5mnths was me-that was 6years
> > ago and I've had enuf.My other Son was very sick 3days
> > after he was born yup withdrawing from MY methadone,the
> > guilt was unbearable.After slowly withdrawing him off
> pediatric morphine he is now fine.My mental state howeva
> > has not really recovered.I need to get off this stuff
> > that has caused me so much pain and guilt.Have reduced
> > ,hard work with two fulltime kids on my own.Then out of
> the blue my friend came to see me one night.Me at home
> > drinking beer smoking pot lookin rather edgy."oh my god
> > you remind me of my best mate(the amazing Kirk!) before
> > she had this stuff-you need it too!' And that was the
> > beginning of my journey!So I'm plannin to go to aus in
> aug and do this thing!I feel like a selfish kid at times
> > now all I think about is Me and Me taking Ibo and Me
> > having no opiates in my bones,teeth,bloodstream etc.I'm
> > so fukin amped I spend lots of time reading all your
> > letters and various other sites info-ibeginagain etc. so
> > many emotions-fear-excitment-I'm sure you know. Please
> any good advice as to how to prepare myself physically and
> > mentaly for my freedom journey would be
> > wunderbar!!!peace and love to all-my life is about to
> > change and its great!!!! I want back in the drivers seat
> > of my body and mind. Tanz from Dunedin nz.xx
> >
> > Send instant messages to your online friends
> http://au.messenger.yahoo.com >
> 



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