[Ibogaine] Idid it! After 10 PM and still sober
shakti at photon.net
Fri Oct 28 19:51:30 EDT 2005
I understand what you are saying...there is no time like the present no
matter how crazy things got this time. I finally got that. It helps that I
have insurance now...I haven¹t in 2 years and the county programs are lame.
I went to therapy intake and got to meet my new MD. She¹s so cool! I told
her what I am getting ready to do and she said, ³well. A lot of things are
controversial. Just because it¹s not FDA approved doesn¹t mean it won¹t
help you. I fully support you doing whatever you think you need to do to
get better.² :) Oh, and she gave me a script for 35 Ativan. She said I
want you have enough to comfortable before you leave so you don¹t feel like
you have to go back to it if you have having symptoms.
I¹m not offended I¹m grateful. Both of my brothers are really upset with
me. My BF is one of those feeling proud of me. I tell you, the love
strategy I think works better. I am doing everything in my power,
counseling, working with an MD and going to treatment.
I¹m pretty beat. Gotta buy my plane ticket now. :)
On 10/28/05 11:39 AM, "Beatrice Blue" <beatriceblue at cox.net> wrote:
> Really great to it! Good for you! I hope I don¹t offend by saying I¹m
> proud of you, but I am. You¹re facing a lot of different stresses right
> now, but seem to know what you want and need and are focusing on it. My
> only advice is keep with it. Don¹t focus on everything being thrown at you.
> Stay focused on yourself and getting better. For some reason, every time I
> went to do this, my entire life went crazy around me. I mean much, much
> crazier than anything normal. Throwing so much extra stress on the
> situation that I used it as an excuse to go back. You see, I saw it as a
> sign it was not the time to do this, instead of what I now think it really
> is, the lifestyle trying to keep you. I realized it would never get easier,
> never be a better time. Once I realized that and that everything will still
> be there to deal with after I focus on myself, I did it. I¹ve always been a
> caretaker, so it was very difficult for me to focus on only myself and my
> needs. You¹re a step ahead.
> May I ask how long until your session? I have a very good, close friend who
> is also getting ready to do this for her alcohol addiction. I know very
> little about it concerning that particular treatment. I¹ve been told you
> must go through the shakes beforehand, is this true? If so, you (and my
> friend) have a lot of courage and determination. I truly applaud you for
> it. I remember when I was still using, I quit cold turkey once, and then
> went back shortly after. After that I had no courage to ever go through
> that again. To know what¹s coming was hard for me.
> Anyway, my prayers, chants, energy, everything is with you. Try to keep a
> positive, focused attitude, and do this! We¹re all here for you!
> PS All you want that you listed before will click into place when you¹re
> better and able to focus on other things again.
> On 10/27/05 10:49 PM, "brenda brewer" <shakti at photon.net> wrote:
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