Germán DC gcaldelas at fibertel.com.ar
Thu Aug 11 14:36:47 EDT 2005

Hi M.
my 2 cts.

electromagnetic fields,
from within to the outside,
a hunter knows the field before the action,
you knew how to score, 
how to move following your intuition chasing the dragon,
well, the dragon now it´s not in "opium shape" anymore,
it is the earth, gaia,
the earth is on a rage it´s suffering because the ones who inhabits her,
deny her, deny their own power of creation, renounce the simple fact of "interdependency", 
refuse to asume that we are traveling tru pure mistery on this EarthShip, this mother earthship. What an adventure!
the hunter needs some redemption, 
needs something good for him,
now he knows that love & prosperity ARE here.
but there´s no love around him cause he had chosen for a long time a field where...well there were other things but no love. 

The field is an electromagnetic one, from your within reaching the exterior, 
but at the same time there´s no in or out...so, you may think to move from city to city, from town to town... from to life to life. 
You can make the difference now, only must be sustain. Subtle bodies take longer that the state of mind to recover, you would be fragile for some years to come, unstable, then you must find power, peace-power, healthy-power, stability.  

Finally we must learn how to live, there´s no recovery, there´s a life to be lived. You are an "action guy", so you need to release that anger somehow, or transform it: do you know "sweat lodge" or "temazcal"?,
Excelent practice; you come out a brand new guy, it helps to mantain health in the BIG sense. It is also a Spiritual Way, a traditional place to give birth & to die. :-). [and everything in the middle]
Do it twice a month is not (it shouldn´t be) a big investment in time/money.
Around these practices there are always people with some extra-knowledge that, for sure, you´ll appreciate. 
take care and mantain an active-pro-towards-justfuckingdosomethingdon´twaitfortheragetocome. It will be back. 
Adrenalin cleans us, get your dose voluntarily, your body needs it, so you know it´ll find the way to dose with. 

be well

----- Original Message ----- 
  From: mcorcoran 
  To: ibogaine at mindvox.com 
  Sent: Thursday, August 11, 2005 1:29 PM
  Subject: Re: [Ibogaine]

  I'm having a very hard time lately. Not because i have a desire to use but because i have no idea how to live. Now being opiate free, my rage is totally out of control. I'm so disatisfied with life, i go back and forth between angry or lathargic most of the time and when the anger takes control i become completely nuts. 
  Last weekend a friend of mine and my sister screwed me over in a way that most people would consider unforgivable. After letting these feelings of betrayal consume me over the next couple of days I snapped like i always seem to these days went to the friends house early yesterday morning and kicked his door off the hinges pulled him out of bed and kicked the shit out of him. I couldn't stop myself. He was in the hospital all day yesterday and is a mess (fortunately) i dont think he's gonna press charges but my hand is broken so i'm kind fucked anyway. Everyone i know says that he deserved what he got and maybe he did although i feel terrible and the first thing i did when i woke up this morning was cry. but what is most desturbing thing about this whole ordeal is that i'm sick to my stomach thinking how far this rage is taking me. its like since i havent been medicating i've turned into a totally differnt kind of nut and quite frankly i dont like high mark but i think he might have been much less of an asshole and maybe even less crazy on some level. 
  I dont know what to do. i feel like i'm always behind the 8 ball in every important area of my life. the longer i've been straight the more of a mess my life seems to become and its not supposed to be like this. i need to get out of this city for starters and since i can't seem to be able to make any kind of plan to do that i sit angry, satanent and pissed off and thats not a good place for anyone to be.
  Any sugestions?

  Preston Peet <ptpeet at nyc.rr.com> wrote:
    >did you see "What the bleep do we know"?
    there are some interesting animations about addiction.
    go slowly but firmly, recover your hijacked brain chemistry.
    keep tapering benzos. I know nothing about bup.<

    Literallly just finished a book published by the Disinformation Company 
    (same folks putting out my books) called "Beyond the Bleep," by Alexandra 
    Bruce, and it explains a lot of the theories proposed and discussed in this 
    movie mentioned above. I haven't yet seen the film, but a three hour version 
    is supposedly in the works for Theatrical release later this year, and a 
    bigger DVD version for early 2006. It sounds like a film I do want to see, 
    and yes, they do discuss, in some parts apparently, addictive behavior, and 
    not just to drugs but to others things too, including even emotions.

    Peace and love,

    "Madness is not enlightenment, but the search for enlightenment is often 
    mistaken for madness"
    Richard Davenport-Hines

    ptpeet at nyc.rr.com
    Editor http://www.drugwar.com
    Editor "Under the Influence- the Disinformation Guide to Drugs"
    Editor "Underground- The Disinformation Guide to Ancient Civilizations, 
    Astonishing Archeology and Hidden History" (due out Sept. 2005)
    Cont. High Times mag/.com
    Cont. Editor http://www.disinfo.com
    Columnist New York Waste

    ----- Original Message ----- 
    From: "Germán DC" 
    Sent: Thursday, August 11, 2005 9:36 AM
    Subject: Re: [Ibogaine] oxycontin withdrawl & Bupe

    > Ron,
    > are you tapering benzos?
    > you can do it slowly, but firmly little by little.
    > you can do it, you can.
    > Life is a hard task I agree, but we are here... must be a reason beyond 
    > our
    > pain.
    > did you see "What the bleep do we know"?
    > there are some interesting animations about addiction.
    > go slowly but firmly, recover your hijacked brain chemistry.
    > keep tapering benzos. I know nothing about bup.
    > From your posts I realized that the worst (talking about legal medecin)
    > thing,
    > the thing that has hurt me the most, were benzos which were prescribed to 
    > me
    > at 16 y.o. my doctor said:
    > "is better for you to take 2mg Valium now, that have an stomach ulcer at
    > 30." ,
    > he was a good man, and i´m sure he tried to "save me" from worst things to
    > happen...
    > well I took 2mg a few times, inmediately started to see how much mgs could 
    > I
    > take before my tongue refused to obey me. That was around 35mg. At that 
    > time
    > I couldn´t run, I could do nothing physically demanding. Even in my worst
    > moment of heavy (cocaine) addiction I wasn´t closer to that state of "body
    > impediment", I mean you don´t feel the benzos but they are there all the
    > time, disturbing functions.
    > I never, never, never ralate my physycal condition to valium.
    > It was mixed with some other moments of my life.
    > I remember I couldn´t do a 300 mts run, I never realized why... until 
    > your
    > posts.
    > Thank you for that, one more piece of my "life puzzle" in place.
    > Expel the terrorist from your brain with diplomacy.
    > Violence is absolutely contraindicated.
    > No rages. Cryng is better.
    > When the mind takes control the heart starts to shut.
    > Be back to your heartbeat, again and again.
    > Slowly.
    > You can.
    > regards
    > gdc.
    > ----- Original Message ----- 
    > From: "Ron Davis" 
    > To: 
    > Sent: Thursday, August 11, 2005 1:17 AM
    > Subject: Re: [Ibogaine] oxycontin withdrawl & Bupe
    >> Howard:
    >> I was caught on the oxy train and did not want anything to do with meth.
    >> bup wasn't approved for treating dependency but I found a clinic that 
    >> sold
    >> it and rx'd it for "pain" management. It was sold as non addicting or
    > light
    >> compared to other drugs. I read the lit in the packages and it stated
    > w/ds
    >> were light. I was also introduced to benzos at the same time, all new
    > stuff
    >> for me. I just knew I had to lose the oxys b.4it killed me. I now know
    > bup
    >> is way bad, most providers won't touch you, my stint w/ IBO damn near
    > killed
    >> me although Tommy, the provider was great. I d/n realize what a number I
    >> had done on myself. I think I need 3 weeks to clear myself at my age and
    >> only had 10 days b/c of work. I fear for my life and profession. 
    >> Anything
    >> you can throw my way would greatly be appreciated, I.a. titrate 
    >> schedules,
    >> etc.I think I'm screwed and want to live again. Can't do IBO b/c c/no get
    > a
    >> short acting opiate in the bible belt and job requirements. I truly fear
    >> for my life. This body is beat. God help me and the others, wish I could
    > go
    >> to Sara's as she has the handle on this poison. That's my story . Life is
    > a
    >> chore, hope it sheds insight into your work and saves my arse. I was
    >> desparate. Help if you can, advice, etc. I'm here by my own hand, 
    >> probably
    >> die by it. Don't mean to be a downer for the list, just telling a story
    > that
    >> may help others. Help is needed. rwd
    >> ----- Original Message ----- 
    >> From: 
    >> To: 
    >> Sent: Wednesday, August 10, 2005 12:01 PM
    >> Subject: Re: [Ibogaine] oxycontin withdrawl & Bupe
    >> >
    >> > In a message dated 8/10/05 10:09:13 AM, rwd3 at cox.net writes:
    >> >
    >> > << After several yrs. of riding the bup train, IM, I have found it to 
    >> > be
    > a
    >> > wolf in sheep's clothing. I loathe the day the Doc told me it wasn't
    >> > addicting,
    >> > blah, blah...it has a vicious bite on withdrawal..short term only...I'm
    >> > late
    >> > by several years. It has kicked me arse many times..strickly harm
    >> > reduction
    >> > to coin a phrase used by one of our learned members. ron >>
    >> >
    >> > Hi Ron,
    >> >
    >> > Language is important here. Any professional these days would not use
    > the
    >> > term addicting as it has no scientific/academic/medical formal
    >> > recognition. The
    >> > drug may not be addicting but, its use over time certainly causes
    >> > dependence
    >> > and withdrawal you bet. I am going to look into this further in the
    >> > methadone/buprenorphine side of my world.
    >> >
    >> > I wouldn't mind list comments on this subject.
    >> >
    >> > Best regards.
    >> >
    >> > Howard
    >> >
    >> >
    >> >
    >> >
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