[ibogaine] ibo 2 report 3
ptpeet at nyc.rr.com
Sun Aug 22 23:10:42 EDT 2004
A couple things I forgot to metion- I did take a booster at the 24 hour
or so mark, maybe the 20 hour or so mark actually, and took another valium
right after it to help me sleep through possiblely the worst of any motion
sickness- in addition to going ahead and eating one dramamine, since I
hadn't been any less parched this time around than last.
The other point is that this journey was much shorter, a whole day
shorter, in that I was upright by 3 or 4 for a minute or two at a time, and
then able to walk around for a couple hours in the park today. God it was a
beautiful day too.
Peace and love to all,
----- Original Message -----
From: "Preston Peet" <ptpeet at nyc.rr.com>
To: <drugwar at mindvox.com>; <ibogaine at mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, August 22, 2004 10:08 PM
Subject: [ibogaine] ibo 2 report 3
> HI all,
> Yes, I am pretty good at the ol' bitchin' and moanin'.
> I'm past the "holy shit what was I thinkin'" stage again now.
> I'm now into the Golden Time (My new term for it- V likes it too),
> ibo afterglow that helps make the world around me so extra beautiful.
> So, in a nutshell:
> I wasn't sure I was going to able to do this weekend, but things just
> clicked all week, (ibo vibes perhaps?) and I honestly think the ibo wanted
> to see me again, just as I did it/he/she.
> I dj'd all night Friday night, from 8:30PM until about 3:15 AM,,
> gone in way early, too antsy to sit any longer in my apartment, knowing I
> could start the ibo at any time.
> I did not go to sleep between getting home by 3:20AM and when I first
> ate the first of 3 doses (the amounts I'll report later as soon as I know
> what they actually were- I've been told of course, but didn't write it
> Bad Reporter!) beginning at 5:39, then at 5:59, and the final portion of
> main dose at 6:19AM.
> As soon as I began to feel the first inklings of ibo buzz, I got
> terrified, and very, very "what in the fuck have I done??!! This was
> Do I really want to subject myself to this agaIN? Then this voice came up
> very clearly saying, "It's too late, you can't back out, go with it- it's
> not a fun drug remember." Very calm, fairly quiet, but definitely audible.
> began to hear very strange sounds, city/outside my windows sounds, all the
> big trucks and things that drive by on Houston St. were making very odd
> high-pitched whining sounds that went on for EVER.
> Over and over again.
> I then got ataxia pretty hard, and the spins.
> Last time I ate to dramamines, but was told they were going to dry me
> out so regretted taking them, because sure enough I did get very dried out
> and parched. But this second time around, again, I got very, very thirsty
> and dry mouthed, whether it's the ibo or the anti-motion sickness stuff I
> unsure of.
> Although I hate the spins and don't handle boats very well, I didn't
> throw up at all first go-round, but this time, egad! I got S-I-C-K!
> Violently retching into the buckets, having to pee but too scared to sit
> and grab the bucket in case I threw up again. It was pretty hellish.
> My idea had been if I take it after dj'ing all night, the kind of
> I want, not the kind the burlesque dancers and the audience thinks they
> wanted- (because it usually works out that I get all sorts of comliments
> throughout the night, and then some blond bimbo-as happened last
> night...errr, not last night, night before last, sorry missing time gets
> confused sometimes- comes up with a sickly sweet "aren't I so FAKE" smile,
> saying, "I'm here with a girlfriend whose b-day/anniversary/whatever the
> hell the stupid reason is wants to hear some 80s hits! Puhlees play us
> 80s hits. We wanna dance."
> Meanwhile, I'm dancing my ass off behind the dj booth, all freakin'
> night, so whenever this happens, or at least in the case of last night as
> sometimes I will be in the mood for some kinda 80s hit (although I
> my idea of a "hit" isn't always what these bimbo/bubbleheads are thinking
> of) I get really like, "80s hits suck ass, and I won't play them- I know
> every single song I'm playing tonight from beginning to end, so
> it." Then give a big warm smile to let her know I do care, just not about
> 80s hits.
> So anyway, I primed myself with the music all night, preparing to go
> into ibo again.
> I thought I'd simply fall asleep easily having been upright, dancing,
> and having to be on top of running the music for the burlesque dancers,
> run the sound for the pre-burlesque band (which was actualy very good -
> called Saint Eve, a local goth/industrial like band- and holy shit I WANT
> their dj's cd set up. He's got those cool DC mixers that flat out make me
> drool lately) as well as all the night music during non-show moments,
> you can imagine I was prettttttty tired by the time I got home. I spent
> nearly 2 hours waiting for V to arrive so I could drop thinking, "should I
> just go to sleep and do this later today instead?" LOL, yeeeah, I'm a drug
> fiend through and through, so that wasn't ever really very seriously
> considered- it was though, but in one of those passing sort of ways. V got
> home, I dropped.
> As noted, I got a lot of aural hallicinations, but began taking
> to help me sleep fairly early, (3 total during initial ibo) as soon as I
> felt I could keep one down after vomiting. (I managed not to throw up the
> ibo though, according to my provider- he think even a couple hours would
> cool, and I managed to hold it in for at least 4.)
> What I did NOT get were any visuals really- I mean, right now I've got
> all the vivid amazing trails happening off everything wether they're
> around or not, but I didn't really get the holodeck this time. I really,
> really wanted to, but again, as a fiend I did not want to wait longer
> between times and wanted to reexperience some of what I did the first time
> round, hoping I could focus better without the terror (which kicked in at
> the last moment anyway, as noted). No liquid metal with eyes open, and no
> holodeck eyes closed. OR, if I did get those things, the valium helped
> deminish them.
> No, I am not complaining at all.
> As someone else noted to me today, "ibo gives people what they NEED,
> what they WANT," and I have to say I wholeheartedly agree.
> Because as awful and hellish as this last experience was, by this
> afternoon, wobbly and weak, I managed to get outta bed and go walk with V
> down the Tompkins Square park to visit the Howl Festival, where hundreds
> local and visiting artists get space along side the fense surrounding the
> park to do whatever they wish artwise (some absolutely brilliant stuff
> as well as vendors selling everything from sausage (yuck) to vegan food
> (believe it or not, I had my first ever VOLUNTARY soy milk, in a
> berry-banana smoothy) and everything in between like music (I bought a
> really fucking cool cd today called Australie Didgeridoo, with 24 of the
> most weird, funcky, eerie music ever. It's actually quite beautiful in
> and very primitive and dark in others- reminding me in some ways of Afrian
> chants and the like- there's even a story about the first didgeridoo
> the front cover that says at one point- Welcome to the time of Dreaming-
> APT is that? Very, that's rhetorical all) and clothing and all sorts of
> other goods that I didn't want or need to buy so didn't.
> So, was it worth it to do it again so soon? Definitely. Did it work
> the way I'd hoped and really wanted? Not at all, not DURING the voyaging,
> but certainly everything I was hoping and asking for afterwards is
> definitely happening now.
> I have already made the firm decision that I am not doing this again
> at least 6 months to a year. No Sooner. (I know, once again, remind me of
> that in 2 months when I begin saying, golly gee you know what I want to do
> again? Ibogaine!- Please.)
> So I hope this fills in some blanks somewhat, or at least, fills in
> something for someone. It is certainly very helpful to me to put all this
> out into the public realm for feedback and countering opinions too.
> Oh, and btw, just for those who smoke POT, Jack Herer pot is flat out
> AWESOME. Get ahold of some (yeah, I'm conspiring here) and smoke it/eat
> it/vaporize it right away. It is honestly magical pot that anyone I've
> smoked some with has about fallen on the floor in amazement and glee,
> profusely thanking me- which isn't really necessary, because what's pot
> but to smoke others out with?)
> Ok, I think I'm finished for now.
> Peace and love to you all, and may the powers that be bless us all,
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