[ibogaine] forget Viagra/Cialis (way off color update)

Preston Peet ptpeet at nyc.rr.com
Fri Aug 20 11:31:44 EDT 2004


>Preston, let me ask you something. I remember when I was in jail and didn't
have meth for a few days, though I was sick, it was easy to orgasm. In fact
when I lied in bed, I would just come like a wet dream. Is this why your sex
life is better now or is IBOGAINE itself affecting a change within you?<

It's very very different from the usual, "I'm withdrawing and my sperm are
exploding out for no reason" cumming I've experienced in the past, in
remarkably similar way to how you've described it here. I think it's not
really the ibogaine either, but rather, the fresh, "I'm alive and don't
actually mind it" feeling I'm experiencing constantly these past couple of
weeks.

>Maybe it will change after Ibogaine next week but for some reason, unless
the 'trip' deals with this aspect of my life, I doubt anything will change.<

Don't bother doubting, just go with whatever happens. I suspect you are
going to be VERY pleasently surprised once it's all over and you come to
your senses again. If yours is anything like my experience has so far been.

>I'm feeling like everyone is thinking I am really fucked up but of course
no one would ever say that.<

Ok, I'll say it- Julian, yer really Fucked Up!
LOL.
Seriously though, I'm super glad to hear your submitting to an ibo session.
I can't say I relate at the moment to the woman-less lifestyle, as yer
right, I'm very very lucky to have V. (Especially after screwing up a couple
of other very decent loving relationships in my life with women I thought I
was going to be with for years and year and year.) I've felt for years that
I don't deserve to be with V, or anyone, as I was such a shit head to other
women at one time or other, stealing everything in the house that wasn't
nailed down for crack/coke/dope/etc. But apparently karma works both
directions, in that I suspect I'm reaping rewards by having V because of
something I am still going to pull off in the future- or so I like to think.
It would be really nice if this were true.

>Fuck it. If you could just let me know about ibogaine and your sexual drive
that would be great. Love your woman like you do, it's really a fantastic
thing to have in life.<

It seems that lately all of V's friends keep telling her how jealous they
are of our relationship- and believe you me I do not want to ever let it go.
I love her and she me, and it's all good. I'm very very aware of how lucky I
am in my relationship, how awful things could actually be but for now
aren't.
;-))
Peace and love,
Preston


----- Original Message ----- 
From: Sapphirestardus at aol.com
To: ibogaine at mindvox.com
Sent: Friday, August 20, 2004 10:48 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] forget Viagra/Cialis (way off color update)


Preston, let me ask you something. I remember when I was in jail and didn't
have meth for a few days, though I was sick, it was easy to orgasm. In fact
when I lied in bed, I would just come like a wet dream. Is this why your sex
life is better now or is IBOGAINE itself affecting a change within you? If
you're not sure why you're 'healthier' maybe Howard can answer this. I'm
specifically interested not in the psychological differences in your life
post Ibo but rather the biological/pharmacological differences from Ibogaine
if there are any.

                  One last thing Preston. I am happy for you as well as
envious(not jealous) you have a great woman in your life. I think, for me,
one of the most important things if not the most important is love and how
that manifests in your relationships. Right now, it seems the only person(s)
I really love are my daughters. That's fine but I need a woman to love and
be with. Sex is....well suffice to say I haven't been with a woman I love or
even like in,(I can't believe I'm saying this but I guess I need to get it
out, it's festering in me like cancer...it really hurts!) 7 years. I feel
like a fucking virgin again. I still need to orgasm two to three times a day
which is not bad for my age and drug ingestion but loving and being intimate
with a woman? Nothing! Maybe it will change after Ibogaine next week but for
some reason, unless the 'trip' deals with this aspect of my life, I doubt
anything will change. SHIT! I sort of wish now I didn't say anything. I'm
feeling like everyone is thinking I am really fucked up but of course no one
would ever say that. People will say they understand and relate etc. but
they can't because it seems like everyone or almost everyone is either
making love to friends or has a person they love and is intimate with them.

            Fuck it. If you could just let me know about ibogaine and your
sexual drive that would be great. Love your woman like you do, it's really a
fantastic thing to have in life.
                                                                  Julian




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